today ish thursday...so sian.. wake up until late... not so late.. hehe... then wake up still very tired but cannot go bac to slp.. haixx... then i cum msn tok to elaine,rachelle n celest... but rachelle went to eat lunch(wah tell me.. i fasting leh..lolx), then the celest go offline.. so left elaine pei wo.. wahhahhahahahahaha...i just now go elaine's blog.. wah.. nice story sia.. hahahah..toking to elaine, she say sian.. then i say yah lor.. hahaha.. sian mah.. nth to do.. ermx.. me left to write hari raya cards give all me friends.. tat one can do later.. lol.. now i pei elaine.. cos we both sian.. hahaha.. ermx.. well, if i nth to do hor.. i will remember all the sad things tat happen to me b4 lor.. then will cry :'(... i dunno y... everytime like tat... then nth to do keep going back to friendster.. i see all the testimonials again.. will remember someone..haixxx...so no point le.. life has to go on.. then after tat,will tink abt my birthday.. even more haixx....well, i'm not going to tell ur the story on wat happen on my birthday cos later i more sad will becum more sian... haixx... well, cannot turn back time.. so must look ahead n learn to accept it.... sometimes i always think: y must all these happen to me??? y??? n not other people.. i keep thinking tat lor...but ppl keep telling me to forget it... they expect me to forget it???? it didnt happen to them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it happen to me damn it!!!!!!!!! think so easy to forget it is it? u try being me..... wah lao... @#$%%^&&%@#$$@$^^&&!!!! but haixx.. this is part of my life.. cant change it... then, another bad news....on teacher's day,my grp perform on stage.. we were damn happy... then i go home... then my mum tell me my aunt just passed away.. JUST....**cry cry**.... haixx... went to see her for the last time n kissed her on her forehead for one last time... i m damn sad... cried the whole night.. couldnt go to slp... then.... time past by.. n i was OK with it.. then come the last day of sch.. many chinese girls were crying... then somemore ain didnt came on tat day... i saw elaine,rina n zhi en cry.. my tears also started to drop....haixx.. one year is like so fast.. n we're gonna be sec 3 soon... haixx... we cried a lot on tat day.. for me,even worse... cried in class alr. havent see the results.... went down,see the results, me go mad.. shout like siao then squad down n cry... then my brother saw it... he look worried.. then he call my mum... he gave me the hp in the toilet(cos i went straight to the toilet after seeing results)... then when i hear my mum the voice.. me start to be emotional n cried.... my family knew i was sad... then my mum ask me if i want to change class.. i say no need le.. cos e1 alr good like tat... want to change go down just becoz i m THE ONLY MALAY IN THE CLASS.. teacher will tink i siao... so i say no need le.. go home,rest a while... then went out with yati.. release stress... but i'm stilll so damn sad... y must it happen to me??????????????????????? y me?????????????????????????? n not other ppl??????????????? will keep thinking abt it.......... damn it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!