well... suppose to be slping.. but cant slp.. wakakaka... anyways ..today is ma pri sch fren's bday.. wahahahaha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...HAPPY BIRHTDAY TO YOU... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FADILAH....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.. Hahahahahahaha..... ermx... da 15... da tua dah.. wahahahahahahah.... mine's still in june.. wakakakakakkaka... anyways wish ya good luck in everything ya do k.. frens always :)

HARLOW..today neh, woke up early sia.. .really... my mum woke me up at 6+ to pray... den after pray den i cant slp.. whahaha.. my sis came home... woaw.. she got her dream job... dunno wat consultant... congrats man.... n the pay can reach up to 4K man... wow... high rite.... really envy her... well,, i cant work.. whahahahah... ermx... maybe later should be i working...... seee my age first de mah.... ok den i went to slp. whahahah.... den i woke up again... n this time at 10+ like omg... tats the first time i woke up dat early on a non-schooling day... wahahahahaha..... anyways i usually wake up at 1+ XD whahahahhahahaha... zhu arh.. anyways.... my dear dear is de only one online... omg.. hahahah... den i toking to her... toking abt orchard nor.... ermx.. to tell ur the truth i've nv been to orchard b4...like nv... i hav no idea y.. someone, i wanna try to go dere...

ok ok.... juneeeeeeeeeeeee is like so far... n i want a lot of things alr.. whahahahahhaha.. dere was this cute bear... i wannnnnnnntt it... haix...but no money... wait for june i ask my mum.. whahahahahahahhahahaha.... i so bad XD ur noe june is wat??? my bday nor.. whahahaahahahahah.... must give me present nor... whahahahha...buay ba nah.. hahahahha...nvm lah... wish me can le...

sch is like so sian.. i hate it... i wannna go e3... got misssssss ang.... n de class aint stressfull..... e1 is like so DAMN STRESSFUL tats y sian lor.... n its like next week dere are so many testsss.. i hate test...oh man... i'm gonna fail it... haix..... haven even do i hav no confidence in myself le.. HAIX... when de paper comes how m i gonna do? i dunno.... i neeed someone to help me.. but oh god.. no one can help me... i hav to do everything alone... dis is so de damn it....

recently i hav so many problemssss...... MANY MANY MANY.... one is the stupid guy who keep callling my damn hp... THIS IS NO CASE OF A WRONG NUMBER!!!!! den de 2nd one... hmmmmm... abt tat one.. i tink it should be ok now.... de 3rd one.. ermx wats the 3rd one? ermx.. nvm lemme think first.. haha.

i tink today i'm gonnnnna cut hair.. wahhahahahha... i tink only... see my mum... whahahaha... but i wanan cut short... i dun like long hair XD dunno y.. whahahahahahha.... hope i cut hair today bah... cos i wannnnnnnnt... hope de auntie cut nice nice nor.... dun cut till i dun like i SUE her arh.. wahahahahha... no lah jk.... ermx.. today ok ok lor... early morning alr i find food eat... m i tat hungry?? yuuuuuuuuuuuuuppp... cos ytd nite i didnt eat.... cos i was waiting for my mum to come home from JB den i fall asleep.. whahahahahah.... den this morning wake up jiu find food eat.. pig norx... anyways my mum bought a lot of DVD.... nice nor... got "meet the fockers","seed of chucky","elektra", "i know wat u did last raya", "tangkai jering" n this one v de sad "bencana TSUNAMI"... u see.... tsunami also got vcd... well.. i'm gonna watch it now... anyways i noe most of the cd i cant see.. whahahah..like meet the fockers is nc16 but i'm gonna watch it anyways.. hahahahahaha... den seed of chucky is m18 but i'm watching it also.. wahhahahaha... no one can stop me.. well tata now.. i'm gonna watch the TSUNAMI.. n gonna pray for them... how sad.. :'(

ermx.. just now nv blog finish.. ahahha.. ok.. I AM VERY MAD NOW... like someone keep calling my phone n keep smsing with me.... its damn irritating.. if its a wrong number, cannot be more than one time call rite?????????? i HATE THISSS... someone just hellllllllllllllllppppppppppp me.... haix.... anyways today in sch.. sian arh... so many hmwks.. so many tests next week also... got 4 lei.. i tink lah.. got a-maths test, chemistry test, physics test, bio test... #@$!@$#%#$^#$%^$ wah lao... but the 3 pure sciences all include as CA marks lor... I HATE IT... i dun even understand bio.. wat mitochondrian or wat.. i dun even noe i spelt tat correctly anot... watever lah.. chem is last year work so i can understand.... physics quite ok lah..involves maths so i can do it.... a-maths also ok lor... except the number line.. i dun get tat..... wahhhhhhhhhh... i'm gonna die.. byebye to all.. dun miss me..

yeah i did a new blog.. nice anot?? whahahahhaha.. nice rite XD

F*** HER LAH... STUPID IDIOTIC DAMN GIRL.. JUST GET OUT OF MY SIGHT.. I HATE U.. U GET IT... SEEING U MAKES ME WANNA SMACK UR FACE YA NOE... U DARE COMPLAIN ABT ME I'LL MAKE U PAY FOR TAT.. JUST U WAIT.... FUCK LAH U.. THIS IS MY BLOG SO I CAN SAY ANYTHING.. WAT CAN U SAY? NTH GET IT.. I DUN EVER WANNA SEE YA AGAIN... JUST OUT OF MY SIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PATHETIC ACT SICK... STUPID... U R NOT WELCOME IN MY LIFE.. NOT NOW.. OR EVER... GET IT???????????

anyways ur must be wondering y i like this... well i'm pissed off.. by SOMEONE... well ya dun hav to noe hu it is.. anyway i got new dear dear XD.. wahahahhahaha.... ur guess is hu................ haha

harlowwwwwwwwww... wah i tink i 2 days nv update arh.. whahahahahah... yesterday arh.. went out.. 2 times.. whahahahah.. no lah.. is at first my mum ask me to follow her go out to causeway point... buy the dunno wat ATM bank for mahadir n fandi or smthing... buy tat for wat... isnt it easy... just go shop buy a simple savebox can alr rite... anyways, after tat met yati n yaya at jurong point.. tats ma kind of place.. wahhahahahaha..... anyways, saw a lot of clothes n shoesssssss.. i wanttttttttttttttttttttt..... anyway at causeway, saw one teddy bear v v v v v v cute.. wished i could hav tat..... :( no money.. whahahhaha... i wanttttttttttttttttttttttttt it... haix... anyways i want tat shirt.. no no tat skirt.. no no tat shoe.. basically i want a lot of things.. haix.. just hv to wait arh.... anyway at jurong rite, actually wanted to take pics.. but then tat stpid machine was out of order.. so stupid... wth.. whahahah.. nvm.. next time can take XD... anyways, at jurong rite, then went to one shop hor.. den bought one gift.. hahahahha... for ma fren.. whahahaha... me n yati n yaya were toking like "wat if he doesnt wear it".. den the salesgirl help me choose... den she say "how can.. from you sure he wear one lah".. where got like tat.. make me so paiseh.. wahhahahahahaha... nvm lah.. hopes he like it... anyways while i was choosing wat to buy.. SOMEONE told me she had one news.. well i cant concentrate on 2 things at one go rite.. den she told me "my anniversarry is on the 21" den i told her "waittt.. i choosing"... whahahhaha.. obviously i cant do 2 things at one go rite.... hahahha.. i didnt even noe wat she was talking abt... then after i choose alr.. then i say to her "who's the guy??" whahahhhahahhahah my reaction so damn slow... i cant concentrate mah.. hahahha.. then tat guy is................. secret.. cant tell .. whahahaha.. anyways wish them happy ending bah.. n happy always... XD my bday must remember.. whahaha...

ok there's 2 freaking damn tests tml !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh.... n now i got a headache... how to give the present to him... he is gonna be busy on tat day.. how????????????? no idea.. anyways wish me luck in my tests bah.. whahahahah.. hope i pass then dun hav to go remedial.. tats my kinda life... welcum to my life.. whahahhahha..

first of all.. me wanna wish all the muslims a SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI... forgive me for all my wrongs... n hope ya all enjoy today...

kk first of all... i'm glad n happy tat at least i made some good frens... in my class of course.. glad to see them tag at me board... n glad tat its not bad being the only malay after all....yeap.. i tink i got over it alr.. i tink lah... all the best to me..

there's 2 freaking class tests on monday...like wth... stuuppid.. i hate tests.. at least physics n bio there wont be any tests... TATS good....then actually chem also dun need.. but thie chem KPO one... want to hav class tests.. its not as if it will be included in the CA marks.. SO EXTRA.. wahahahahahahahaah... nvm lah.. must do my best.. i den dun wan go the remedial class arh.. history also.. i'd rather study on my own :)

wat m i gonna buy for him??? i dun even noe:( waiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttttt... i tink i noe wat to buy le.. but i aint gonna tell anyone.. hahhahahahha.. its a secret... sssssshhhhhhhhhhh... hahahahahhahahah.... just wait n see bah...

anyways today first house is of course my grandma's house... its so peaceful without my grandpa :'( its ok... looking at his pics.. bring back memories.. i remembered tat i used to help him.... he was so kind to me.. he doesnt even scold me.. even if he did its for my own good :( well, its ok.... i hav to live on.. just now went to the cemetary(however u spell tat)... went to see a lot of ppl.. first of all is my arwah atuk..(my late grandfather).... next is my grandma's neighbour the late grandfather.... den if i'm not wrong is my uncle :( .... den last one is my aunt :'( ... i miss them lotttttttsssssssssssss.... but well, life has to go on.. haixxx... cant stop thinking abt it... :(

the chinese new year decorations.. i see 3e2 n 3e3... the deco until so nice... i see my class.. haix.. dun say lah.. its like there's only one damn pathetic window... wat the heck sia... i want my window!!!!!!!! i demand a window!!!!! pliz.. c'mon... need it for me to live.. for ventilation watsoever is tat..... waahahahha... the sch is like so damn pathetic... y only one small window ya tell me..???? y??????????????????????? i want my window.. i dun care!!!!! whether my class win anot.. it doesnt matter i tell u... so wat if other classes win? its NONE of my business..... like we cum to sch to study.. not to deco class until like tat.. to me its like a waste of time.. no offence lah.. but tats my point of view...

i read joanne's blog.. well felt sorry for her.. but yeah life has to go on.. i felt like tat b4... *ahem ahem* maybe some of ur dun noe.. but some of ur noe... i hav felt like tat b4.. but wat to do? should let him go sooner or later.... yeap.. however painful it is... just let go.. so ya can be free.. yup... n concentrate on studies.. like wat MISS CHEW said.... this year not a resting year.. ok like watever lah.. i wanna rest now.. so tiiiiiiiiiireeeeeed... chat with ur later.... (",)

today lei... ermx.. first wanna say smthing to joanne norx... yeap joanne.. read ur email n those ya tag at my tagboard le... thx for ur care n concern.. n i believe we will survive till the end... we dun want other ppl's sympathy.... they cant look down on us.. cos 3e1 going all the way... 3 cheers n 3 cheers for 3e1.. HIP HIP HOORAY... HIP HIP HOORAY... HIP HIP HOORAY... wahahahhahaha... i'm crazy.. wahahahahhahaha...... ermx..like wat joanne said, whether we like 3e1 anot, its gonna be out class for 1 year.. n who noes... 4e1 also next year.. so damn stress..... n to joanne, well yeah hope to noe ya better as well.. my partner.. ahahahha... we hav smthing in common lei.. we like to laugh.. A LOT N ALOUD.. wahhahahahaha.. i mean it ya noe.. its true.. lol.. bring joy to the class mah.... n i hope to noe 3e1 even better... cos i hav to accept the fact tat i m in 3e1 n not in 3e2... well yeah i hate 3e1 but i hav to like it n live with it... yup... n yeah.. if i said smthing harsh or wat in my blog or to you, i'm really really really really really sry yeah... yup... :)

next this one is for pamela.. yeap.. pamela.. u heard me right... well if i ever made ya angry or wat.. then i'm sry k? really really really sry.. hope i'm forgiven n we can be frens and classmates as well... :) n i dun wanna go the stuuuupid maths olympiad... argh!!!!!!!! i hate it.. c'mon i wanna refund.. eh? its not as if i buy it.. -_-" hahhahahahah.. i mean i dun want to go.. its like u go there the teacher tok tok then we copy copy copy.. test also like tat.. then its like wats the point rite... stuuupid.. haixxx.. this one also must face... its reality.. OMG... haixxx.... well, once again if i made u angry.. i'm sry ks? den hope we becum frens always.. :)

then this one is for everyone reading my blog... hahahahha.... ermx yeap tml hari raya :):) i hate it n i lub it.. i hate it cos it wont be the same anymore :(:( well i tink most of ur noe abt it alr.... well at the same time i lub it cos like life has to go on rite.. so might as well live it to the fullest.. i mean like wats the point of like feeling down all the time... it will only bring ya down.. ya wouldnt want tat rite.. so i hav learned tat i must get on with life no matter wat.. even if i fail my tests or wat (CHOY CHOY CHOY) i'm not gonna give up... i'm gonna learn from my mistakes... yeap.... see now i so smart *proud* whahahahahhaha.. thx thx.. bhb.. ahhahahahah..

sch sux man.. i mean like OK maths i understand.. both e-maths n a-maths... malay I DUN AT ALL... ok maybe some... cos my malay sux...then sci lei?? chem i tink is OK maybe some i dun understand.. BIO this SUX.. like i dun even understand a thing!!!!!!!!!!! i mean OK i understand a bit..but not all... i have to study lots abt this subject... how pathetic is tat... haixxx... then somemore got wat? oh yah.. HISTORY like hell sia... haixxxxx... i dun wanna go to the past....... i mean yes i wanna go back to 2e1 but life has to go on rite... but i dun wanna go to the past.. way past.. like BC all tat.. like they want us to learn abt our own culture like watever man? i hate it.. cos i sux at this damn subject.. HAIXXX...... ermx.. is tat all the subjects?? oh yah i forgot to add in english.. -_- which is the most important of all.. ENG.. i tink i'm OK at it.. lets hope i dun fail k? hahah.. best of luck to me yah.. hahahahhahah... can say overall sch sux.. but i'm gonna live on with it for my 2 remaining years in here.. yeap.. best of wishes for me.... :)

i read of this somewhere i tink.. boyfriends are for a while but frens r for life.. well i'm not thinking of the negative sides of those who are in a relationships.. no offence ok.. but i wanna advice to all out there... if u r in a relationship.. dun forget ur frens... DUN EVER FORGET.... remember tat ya.. cos frens are the most important thing in ur life.. without frens, u r not wat u r today.. yeap.. so dun forget.. hahah.. n tat was an advice from Aishah.. waahahha :)

well, to end this.. i wish all muslims a SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI n all the best to my late grandfather.. in everything he do.. n best of luck to everything i do as well.. peace :) as wat my godbro izwan always say.. hahahha.. PEACE :):)

to joanne n pamela:

ur hate me rite? tink i dunno arh.. i knew it.. its not my fault she change ma seat... blame my specs.. n my mum said by the end of this month then do.. so like wat do u expect me to do?? u were just separated by one seat away from each other? how about me? didnt ur think like wat were my feelings? how i felt when i was separated from my 2e1s? n to top it up, i m the only malay.. like how damn pathetic is tat.. u tink i want is it.. she change me there so i can hav girls surrounding me... ur can hate me if u want.. i dun mind? like i cry every nite.. cos ya noe wat? hating 3e1 is hate.. ya so wat if i hate? i cant change to 3e2 can i.. so like might as well stay in 3e1... ur dun even understand how it feels like to be the only malay in 3e1???? do ur noe how sad i was???? i dun mind changing there ya noe.. if there were malays in the class... I DUN MIND... but now, there's not even one damn another malay to accompany.. how lonely do ya think i feel??? so wat? teacher keep asking me to make frens? so wat? being the only malay sux... even if i tok to chinese, it wouldnt be the same dun ur noe tat?? it just alr sux being the only malay.. yeah rite.. joanne was separated from pamela by me...did ur ever thought how i felt when i was separated from my only frens from my own class?? do ya noe how lonely n devastated i was??? n here ur are, scolding me n bugging me to change back with joanne... it can be irritating... ok i dun wanna tok abt it... i'm gonna tell teacher abt this n c wat she has to say abt it... n u say teacher is biased? tink i nv read ur blog is it.. i read it.. n its so obvious the peron is me yeah... u tink teacher is biased? hell no she isnt... wat u mean she is biased against me? like real ya noe tat... she changed my seat doesnt mean she is biased... dun go ard insulting her... she has the rights cos she's the teacher.. n like wat miss chew said, those who are noisy will hav to change place.. well i was noisy tats y i changed place... ur changed place as well... yeah students hav the rights as well, but hey, u r still in sec sch.. teacher hav the final say.. ther'e nth u can do abt it... well if u're gonna hate me again somemore, i dun mind actually.. i'm better off myself... crying n thinking everytime tat i'm the damn only pathetic malay girl in the stupid class 3e1... just think abt it.. how would i feel??????? u tink i'm happy being the only malay.???? u tink i like it?? think abt this b4 u go ard typing abt someone in ur blog... get tat in mind.. n i'm not asking for ur sympathy.. so dun show it.. i dun need it... i mean it..


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harlow everyone.. got miss me mah? hahaha.... been so busy lately den no time want blog arh... so sian.. sch start le.. now 2nd week le.. so stress...... i just now cry in class :'( argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! y like tat? i also dunno.. cos just now i remembered abt my ah gong :'( MY AH GONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss him a lot.. its not even hari raya yet... y did he hav to go?????????????? i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah gong cum back... i need you :'(..... we were like at the hospital tat time... n we were all crying... den my cuz say "atuk datang balik" which means grandpa,cum back!!!!!!! i'm so sad!!!!!!!!!! n i cant concentrate in sch... haixxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...... hope i feel better... :( i wanna cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...someone help me... :(

harlow everyone.. today is the last day of the school holidays.. wow its like so damn fast.. haixxx.... y like tat... i wan more holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!! not enuf.. haix.. n my form teacher is mrs wong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun like her.. i mean i dunno who she is.. but i dun like her... she is like how u say?? haix.. nvm nvm... Y LIKE TAT???? i want e3!!!!!!!!!!!!! miss ang teach e3!!!!!!!!! i mean maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wah piang arh... i dun want !!!!!!!!!!! n my maths teacher is my form teacher... wth... den my bio teacher is miss wang??? i tink so.. not sure.. den eng teacher dunno.. then history is confirm either mrs wong(another one) or mdm sarah.. i dun want mdm sarah arh... opppssss... i shouldnt hav said tat to ur rite?? hahaha.. nvm... HAIX... sch havent reopen sian liao.. I DUN WANT GO SCH!!!!!!!!!!! somebody help me.. y no one online one!!!!!!!!!!!!! sian arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i would like to wish a HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone out there.. may all ur wishes all cum true.. n hope mine cum true also.. all the best for my ahgong n ahma.. hope they ok...... well, just a HAPPY NEW YEAR... n hope i do well in the year 2005.... may i hav a bright year ahead.. n to all of u out there as well.... :)